Dear Future Soulmate,

I’m clingy, but I’ll never admit it. I’ll check my phone every 5 minutes to see if you’ve replied to something I’ve drafted numerous times in my head. I’ll get anxious when you don’t answer me back for a long time, and I’ll think to myself maybe you’ve had enough of me. Yet when your message finally comes, it doesn’t matter what you’ve said because the simple act of replying assures me that you’re still mine. At least, for the time being it will.

I’ll get jealous a lot, but please don’t misconstrue it as me tying you down. I won’t get jealous because I want you all to myself, no. I want you to be able spend time with family, friends, and everyone else in between. I’ll get jealous because maybe, just maybe you’ll find something special in someone else, as you did with me. I’ll be weary that maybe you’ll look at someone just as how you look at me, or your heart will begin to wander somewhere else.

I’m insecure, and it’s of no fault of your own. When I say something a little negative about myself, it’s not a cry for attention nor is it me wanting you to disagree with me. It’s me just being me. Before you, I’ll probably never imagine in a million years that you’d be mine. So by virtue of the fact that we’re together makes me even more insecure. But let me make something clear, I won’t be bagging on myself all the time. I know what talents I possess, what I excel in, the aspects in my physique that work in my favor, and so on. I’m just more vocal on the things which fall in the opposite categories.

I’ll possess many faults, and I’m not looking for you to fix them. I think when I finally meet you, I’ll be more accepting of these faults than I am now. All I’m asking is that you accept them with me.

I know this letter seems to be focusing on the negative things about me, and it’s quite a bit to take in… so let me make a change of pace.

I’ll always love you. When we’re finally acquainted, and we finally begin to personify the definition of love for one another, I’ll never need another definition. I’ve told myself countless times that I would never cheat on someone because I know what that feels like. I’ll love you more than I love myself and I know that isn’t too great but that’s just how I am. I’m going to fall in love with the way your smile dances across your face every time you see me, I’ll fall in love with the way you lose yourself in the things you love, I’ll fall in love with the way your voice fluctuates depending on how you’re feeling, I’ll fall in love with the way you say my name, and I’ll most definitely fall in love with so much more. I’ll study everything about you, I’ll remember the slightest details about you and your life. I’ll know what you look like when you’re upset without you having to say a word, I’ll know how you like your coffee in the morning, I’ll know how long it takes you to get ready before we go out, I’ll know most of the trivial things about you and the rest I’ll learn along the way. I pray you’ll be able to do the same as well.

If you’re still reading, and you haven’t run away… I’ll probably be sitting across from you looking insanely nervous and insecure. I’d be sitting with my legs folded under me on the chair anxiously waiting for your reaction. On top of that I’ll probably be ready to burst into tears of happiness or tears of sadness.

So to end this letter, which my actual soulmate will read once the time comes… I’d like to say thank you. Thank you for giving me a reason to live again, thank you for proving to me that love really is meant for me, and thank you for being my reason to be alive.

—To my future. ♥

(Source: brandello)

{ The Happy List; VIII }
Spotify. Thank you so much for making me happy. Discovering new good songs is <3. 
Ed Sheeran’s new album: X. 
J.Co’s oreology. Heaven.
Pizza party yesterday. hehez
Movie marathon
Catching up with my College best friend ♥
Bed weather
New opportunity, new plans, new goals. All my fingers are crossed. I really hope for this.
The Voice Kids. I REALLY HOPE DARREN WILL BE THE GRAND WINNER. HE DESERVES IT. Or Juan Karlos. Please.
Pure Love. Heeeh. My favorite. :)
Say Something by A Great Big World
Seeing old photographs. College days. 
New hair color
Have a break. Have a KitKat. My favorite, so yummy.
Cinemalaya plans with friends
Afternoon naps
Passport renewal! :)
Back reading on my blog. And deleting some old memories. Haha
___

{ The Happy List; VIII }

  • Spotify. Thank you so much for making me happy. Discovering new good songs is <3. 
  • Ed Sheeran’s new album: X. 
  • J.Co’s oreology. Heaven.
  • Pizza party yesterday. hehez
  • Movie marathon
  • Catching up with my College best friend ♥
  • Bed weather
  • New opportunity, new plans, new goals. All my fingers are crossed. I really hope for this.
  • The Voice Kids. I REALLY HOPE DARREN WILL BE THE GRAND WINNER. HE DESERVES IT. Or Juan Karlos. Please.
  • Pure Love. Heeeh. My favorite. :)
  • Say Something by A Great Big World
  • Seeing old photographs. College days. 
  • New hair color
  • Have a break. Have a KitKat. My favorite, so yummy.
  • Cinemalaya plans with friends
  • Afternoon naps
  • Passport renewal! :)
  • Back reading on my blog. And deleting some old memories. Haha

___

Anonymous asked: Good morning have a nice and blessed day :)

Good morning, have a nice and blessed day too! :)

mrlx asked: Hi Shea!! Once you get this, you have to say five nice things you like about yourself publicly, then send it to ten of your favorite followers!:)

Hello, Merlie merlihadalittlelamb! Thank you! ♥ This will be very very  random because I can’t think of any nice things about me (it’s hard hahahaha jk).

  • I’m not “really” a Kathniel fan, but I adore Kathryn so much because she’s so pretty (omg), and I’m so kinikilig whenever I see Daniel on TV. hahahaha And before.. I don’t have any plans of watching SDTG, bcos I’m not a fan of the book (haven’t read it). But since I read a lot of positive comments about the film.. why not give it a try. So my friend Abi and I watched it a while ago. And I love it. Kilig vibes all over!! Hahaha I thought it’s corny but it’s not. Mehehehehe. I can’t breathe! Kathryn is really pretty, that lipstick tho. ♥ (just want to share it here. hihi)
  • I believe in destiny and soulmates. Seriously. :)
  • I have an amazing memory. hahaha I can remember exact dates about important events and happenings, birthdays (even the birthday of my crush when I was in elementary hahaha), names…etc.
  • I love The Voice Kids, and my bets are Darren and JK! <3
  • I love to research.. about anything, people, words, places.. whatever I’m curious about.. thanks to google for making it easy & convenient for us. :) And I also have a great stalking skills. Hahahahahaha :p

Anonymous asked: I feel shy describing myself lol but I'm the one who's wearing a cap on profile pic :) -anon

Ohh. I see. Ikaw pala! haha :)